No one likes a tirade

So dont read it. My car did not pass inspection so I am angry. You get different answers, interpretations of the NC regulations depending where you go. This is not the time for bullshit car problems. I need to focus on our daughter and her kindergarten experience. I need to be healthy.. I have been having stomach aches again like I did years ago when I was under alot of stress. I need to focus on having a job by October. But the employment industry is saturated with recruiting agencies. I have one person helping me. I do not want the bs of any other recruiters placing me somewhere I dont belong just so they make their quota for the month.

I am turning into a hermit. I dont want to leave the house in my crappy car. I cant find anything because everything is so disorganized. I never said I was organized. When I was overwhelmed from the messes I made in my youth, my mom was always there to pick up the pieces. My husband keeps certain parts of the house in order but my junk is everywhere as is Reagan's.

I will laugh again. Something made me laugh the other day but I dont remember what it was. I know I am down.... but I am still blessed. I get it. So if I am not on the phone keeping in touch, I dont want to sour you with the zombie that is me. If you need me, let me know and of course I will be here for you. That is a given. I just have to get my life under control. There are too many things that are just out of my control and it throws me off balance. I will wing it as best I can. We are all struggling. Dont get the idea that I am so self centered as to not understand that other people are dealing with obstacles. I know this. I just got to thinking how I havent blogged and where did I get lost? A little life change and I fall apart? Others that I know have it worse than I do. I guess I am angry for feeling sorry for myself because I am a Taurus and we are a proud breed. I sound like a dog.

I watched a disturbing movie today that bothered me. I should have turned it. That is what I get for straying from Disney channel.

Peace and love.. until later.

Happy Birthday Ame!!!

Hope you have a wonderful birthday.

Kindergarten....

Daddy took Reagan in for her first day of school. I am at my last few days at work until the next one comes along (gig not child). Here are some pictures from the first day.